27.1.08

(finger on the pulse)


i forget the first time that it happened, but last semester in analysis, when i was most bored and ready to fall asleep, i found myself tracing an EKG in my notes. it would proceed for a few beats, then break up and flatline.

i asked around and went through some tests. there's nothing wrong with my heart. but sometimes when i'm running i get relaxed almost to the point of sleeping. sometimes i notice a heaviness left side of my chest. it hurts but i dont want to stop so i go faster.

now, when i'm sitting very still, i can still feel it beating soundly beneath my ribs

25.1.08

(inauspicious)

i haven't posted here for a while, but i have been writing this

then again, if you're reading this than you've most likely already read that. anyways, i'm back.