(finger on the pulse)

i forget the first time that it happened, but last semester in analysis, when i was most bored and ready to fall asleep, i found myself tracing an EKG in my notes. it would proceed for a few beats, then break up and flatline.

i asked around and went through some tests. there's nothing wrong with my heart. but sometimes when i'm running i get relaxed almost to the point of sleeping. sometimes i notice a heaviness left side of my chest. it hurts but i dont want to stop so i go faster.

now, when i'm sitting very still, i can still feel it beating soundly beneath my ribs