rambling and a thing

here's to some more agitation. i have a couple specific things to be doing now, but i've been thwarted enough to sit around in it. i'm trying to put together my travels for the winter, but i'm not firm on how it's all going down and the people who know things (i.e. my parents) are off the radar. i'm also behind on my correspondence (on one hand, who isn't?) and have a bit of work. i might make the work wait, now that i think of it. not the best idea but it'll work.

here's a thing:
for a while after i went running i had a heat surplus. i was sitting on my bed in the cold in my shorts and shirt and pumping heat into the air around me. the boundary of my heat was outside of me. i was entirely enveloped. now it's reversed and i'm poking holes in the space i've made warm. my fingers are sticking through and my toes and parts of my arms. this is one way that running is good. it doesn't feel good to be cold like this.